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||[Oct. 3rd, 2007|01:09 am]
GLBT Aspies and other non-socialites
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I'm Jude, I'm 22 years old, and I'm the female kind of "Jude" not the male kind :-D.
I'm not entirely sure where my "sexuality" lies since it hardly exists at all. I find myself emotionally attached to both females and males. I find myself more sexually attracted to females, though only in hypothetical situations, never real situations. I just don't feel sexually attracted to anyone in "real" situations.
Most of my "relationships" have ended very prematurely with very little physical contact. In fact, I get angry when I find out someone is interested in me, because I feel as though it's compulsatory that I give them "a chance" which I feel is just a waste of time, though I can't stop myself from letting them try. Likewise, I have an extremely hard time keeping friends due to communications issues, loss of interest on my part, lack of social knowledge of when to call them... when to text back, what to say, how to express that I care... these sorts of things.
I have unofficially diagnosed Autism. The doctor was hesitant to stamp me with it initially because I was misdiagnosed as a child ( aged 3 ) with ADHD/Bipolar Disorder which caused a lot of trouble with schooling. I haven't had medical insurance in almost 5 years now, so I haven't had any treatment in that long. I was previously on Zoloft which caused my suicidal tendencies to increase dramatically, thus I'm hesitant about medication.
I'm a vegetarian, though not vegan. It's for both medical reasons and rights reasons, I suppose. The hormones in american beef have caused a lot of my ... well, reproductive issues that I won't go into. Since becoming a vegetarian most of my medical complications have faded except for my autism. The autism remains and I would suppose it always will.
I'm interested in what kind of treatment you guys receive as adults. I'm finding it hard to find an autism specialist in my area, much less an adult-autism specialist in the area. It was no problem when I lived in Oakland, CA, but now that I'm on the east coast in Virginia, it's become an issue. I'll have medical insurance again soon since I recently picked up a rather sweet job, and I want to find out what I can do, what I should do, and if I even should go a treatment route at all.
Thanks for all your time!
Jude ( feel free to friend my public journal shovedtoagree as I'm pretty private on this one )